Dear person I loved & gave the best of myself, my energy, & my time too:
Just because I don't feel like talking to you today, tomorrow, or ever again in life; does this mean, in any way, that I'm wasting my time being mad at you. I just finally realized that while I was there to uplift you, nourish your soul, & heal the wounds of the past hurt on your heart; you were only there to try & extinguish the light I, selflessly, tried to extend to you. I'm not mad at you. All that you've done to me is not worth my anger when I know my own worth enough to live in my inner peace. I don't judge you. You made your choices & you are forever bound to them. That will never mean that I will be stupid enough to be bound to you. Insanity is doing the same thing over & over again expecting a different result. Your fake apologies, & chance cards have all expired. I will never choose to try & keep someone in my life, giving them the best of me, when they will always continue to choose to give me the worst of them. I know what I deserve from myself & from others, by example, I gave this to you, only to get something below what I had given, back to me in return. I know what I deserve because I give it freely to others. I practice what I preach. I give that I might get. I know my worth because it is not valued in a bank account. I may not have the numbers you have in the bank, but it & you are not worth me or the diminishing shrinkage of my grace & my inner happiness. I tried to pull you out of your storm,& into my peace that is protected by my own spiritual truth & light. Some people, however, love to be lost in their own misery, so much so, that they just have to share it, like it's a gift that someone really wants to open. Hence why I'm gone. I can hurt myself on my own if I choose too, but I don't, & I won't. I will never choose to remain with you so that you can choose to hurt me, to make yourself feel better. I will destroy you & you don't even know it because I chose not too. People should never take a wise peaceful person for granted. While they are wise & inherently peaceful / good in nature 80% of the time, the 20% of provoked darkness in a peaceful person will always seek to conquer the darkest personalities that seek to harm, extinguish, or take away their light with a vengeance. If I had stayed, I would have defeated you at your own game but it & you are not worth my time & effort. I defeated you with my silence. I have destroyed you by my absence. You thought you won the battles, but you lost. You thought you won the war, but you lost that too. Something inside you will always miss, crave, & think about how I reached beyond the bullshit in your head to lay my hands upon your soul. You didn't do this to me, I did this to you. Truly the greatest of senselessly selfish idiots never realize what they have in a person close to them until they are gone; only to then realize that its too late to do anything different. I know some of you have had your share of senselessly selfish idiots that you have had to eject from your life in one form of relationship or another. If only it were so easy to eject bosses or professors that are like this.
Just because I don't feel like talking to you today, tomorrow, or ever again in life; does this mean, in any way, that I'm wasting my time being mad at you. I just finally realized that while I was there to uplift you, nourish your soul, & heal the wounds of the past hurt on your heart; you were only there to try & extinguish the light I, selflessly, tried to extend to you. I'm not mad at you. All that you've done to me is not worth my anger when I know my own worth enough to live in my inner peace. I don't judge you. You made your choices & you are forever bound to them. That will never mean that I will be stupid enough to be bound to you. Insanity is doing the same thing over & over again expecting a different result. Your fake apologies, & chance cards have all expired. I will never choose to try & keep someone in my life, giving them the best of me, when they will always continue to choose to give me the worst of them. I know what I deserve from myself & from others, by example, I gave this to you, only to get something below what I had given, back to me in return. I know what I deserve because I give it freely to others. I practice what I preach. I give that I might get. I know my worth because it is not valued in a bank account. I may not have the numbers you have in the bank, but it & you are not worth me or the diminishing shrinkage of my grace & my inner happiness. I tried to pull you out of your storm,& into my peace that is protected by my own spiritual truth & light. Some people, however, love to be lost in their own misery, so much so, that they just have to share it, like it's a gift that someone really wants to open. Hence why I'm gone. I can hurt myself on my own if I choose too, but I don't, & I won't. I will never choose to remain with you so that you can choose to hurt me, to make yourself feel better. I will destroy you & you don't even know it because I chose not too. People should never take a wise peaceful person for granted. While they are wise & inherently peaceful / good in nature 80% of the time, the 20% of provoked darkness in a peaceful person will always seek to conquer the darkest personalities that seek to harm, extinguish, or take away their light with a vengeance. If I had stayed, I would have defeated you at your own game but it & you are not worth my time & effort. I defeated you with my silence. I have destroyed you by my absence. You thought you won the battles, but you lost. You thought you won the war, but you lost that too. Something inside you will always miss, crave, & think about how I reached beyond the bullshit in your head to lay my hands upon your soul. You didn't do this to me, I did this to you. Truly the greatest of senselessly selfish idiots never realize what they have in a person close to them until they are gone; only to then realize that its too late to do anything different. I know some of you have had your share of senselessly selfish idiots that you have had to eject from your life in one form of relationship or another. If only it were so easy to eject bosses or professors that are like this.
Just because a person is your soul mate, it would be a fools errand to remain with this person who chooses, at every turn that counts, to treat them badly. It is not what we can buy or what we have outside of ourselves that counts. It is how we treat ourselves, each other, & the planet that will always matter most. Reputation is nothing. Character is everything. Reputation is what so many people base their lives on. Reputation is what people have been trained to think is the most important thing to protect and sustain in life. The logic of Reputation is absolutely nothing but hog wash that has been put down the drain of our collective human consciousness, I.E. Ego, that impedes our ability to see the reality in the illusion because we remain firmly trapped in our delusion of what we believe our reality is in the illusion. In life we have to be free from all attachments. This includes the love of soul mate that chooses to bring you down rather than lift you up. This includes the loss of a loved one in loosing their body, but never loosing their soul. This includes everything outside ourselves, when everything there is, lies within our souls the entire time.
Reputation is what others think of us. This is the outside looking in. Putting our faith, trust, love, & happiness outside of ourselves, more than inside ourselves, will never be sustained for too long. Character comes from inside. It is how we feel inside that projects outside in how we treat other people. Our character is easy to spot in our good moods. It is ever more present in our not-so-good moods. How we treat people when they are not around says a lot about us. How we treat people in our anger says even more about us than how we choose to treat people when we are in good spirits. Never let your anger get the best of you enough to control you. It will punish you worse than you can begin to punish yourself at every turn by committing you to actions that will spare out reactions that are volatile & invariably unknown. For example, a person could get angry before finding out all of the facts in a situation & randomly hit someone. This is the action. Next, the person gets back up & strikes back. This is the first reaction. The angry person did not think about the reaction or the invariable shock wave of reactions that might in sue. Around the corner, people here what's going on. They immediately all run to protect their friend, and end up beating up the person who started the altercation. Every actions has an equal or greater reaction. Every action is a choice. Every choice has its equal or greater consequences. Being mindful of others is also being mindful of oneself just the same.
Reputation is what others think of us. This is the outside looking in. Putting our faith, trust, love, & happiness outside of ourselves, more than inside ourselves, will never be sustained for too long. Character comes from inside. It is how we feel inside that projects outside in how we treat other people. Our character is easy to spot in our good moods. It is ever more present in our not-so-good moods. How we treat people when they are not around says a lot about us. How we treat people in our anger says even more about us than how we choose to treat people when we are in good spirits. Never let your anger get the best of you enough to control you. It will punish you worse than you can begin to punish yourself at every turn by committing you to actions that will spare out reactions that are volatile & invariably unknown. For example, a person could get angry before finding out all of the facts in a situation & randomly hit someone. This is the action. Next, the person gets back up & strikes back. This is the first reaction. The angry person did not think about the reaction or the invariable shock wave of reactions that might in sue. Around the corner, people here what's going on. They immediately all run to protect their friend, and end up beating up the person who started the altercation. Every actions has an equal or greater reaction. Every action is a choice. Every choice has its equal or greater consequences. Being mindful of others is also being mindful of oneself just the same.